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17 months ago I was in a play. 17 months ago I danced around on stage feeling like I could fly. 17 months ago I sat at Denny's with my best friend and some kid named Drex. 17 months ago I kissed him for the very first time. 17 months ago I began a journey that will last me a life time.

Today Drex and I celebrate 17 months. 17 months of joy, hardships, pain, tears, laughs, kisses, and so many amazing memories. Today I celebrate the man who has stood by my side, and continues to do so. No matter how hard or impossible things get. I love him more today than I ever have, and that love continues to grow, day by day, month by month. I am so lucky to call him mine.

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I have the most amazing family in the world. I have two adorable babies that I love more than anything. They are crazy and and exhausting but they make every troubling and tiring moment worth it. Loosie howls at everything, especially recently, and Nitro has a slight obsession with peeing on wires (very troubling), but I wouldn't trade them for anything. :)

I have the greatest most wonderful boyfriend in the world. I know I've blogged about him many times, but I still am in shock of how on earth I got such a perfect guy. I mean really, he has sat with me while I had blood and spit falling out my mouth into a bowl in the bathroom, he has held my hair up as I've puked into the toilet, he has stayed on the phone with me all night so that I don't feel alone. And though I am the most undeserving selfish girl in the world, he loves me anyways.

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Today was my do absolutely nothing day.

I woke up this morning with ridiculous amounts of pain. The little monster in my stomach was eating me from the inside out. Hours later, I get my period, and the pain intensifies. ARG! I hate being a girl. My periods really normally aren't that bad, except other than a few months out of the year. This being one of those months...with lots of icky yucky miserable pain. And it's only day 1. :/

So we spent our day taking photos of ourselves.



Can you sense the boredom?

Also this whole 'eating healthy and eating in' thing is growing old...quickly. It's so exhausting having to plan ahead what we're going to eat the next day, I mean I don't know what I'll feel like tomorrow so how am I supposed to know?! Like tomorrow, we're taking Caden for the day, which means lunch with Emily, which normally is easy. Decide where to eat, meet there, eat, and go on our ways. HOWEVER since we're not eating out now we have to decide WHAT to eat, since we have to make it ahead of time, and where to eat it. Which basically means we get to eat sandwiches, but what if I don't FEEL like a sandwich?! Then what? MUST PERSEVERE. Even when it sucks right? Oh poop.

Well tonight consists of...watching the Finale for the Hills...taking more Midol...figuring out what to for lunch tomorrow...and maybe if I get lucky, relaxing...we'll see how this goes. :)

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First Day at Journeys! :)

And let me tell you....it was AWESOME. Seriously the greatest job ever! I also realized I don't do greasy foods anymore...sadly...to my dismay...I tried today...and for the second time it made me sick. Oh well, we're trying to eat better anyways so it's not a bad thing.

Dinner tonight...chicken wings, green bean casserole, and potatoes :) Yum Yum.

Alright this is going to be short, not really feeling the motivation. :)

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So first we started the day with me getting up bright and early and buying a giant singing balloon, some cookies, and a card. I walked in, surprised him, and of course exclaimed HAPPY BIRTHDAY oh so loudly. Then I curled my hair and got ready for lunch at the brewhouse.





After lunch we went to Drexs' moms' house and he got to open his present. (He was very excited)



The gun he very much so wanted! And since he's 18, he can legally have it! whoo!



Cute couple picture!



Then I took him to the Double Musky for a nice dinner :)



He was very happy with his dessert! :)



All in all we had a wonderful birthday celebration! I love my 18 year old :)

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Eating In...and Healthy.

Drex and I have developed the bad habit of eating out almost everyday at least once a day. This is mostly due to the convenience of fast food and not having to clean up anything afterwards. However, in order to conserve money since we're now on a budget, we went out to Borders and bought ourselves a good old fashioned cook book and then went to Fred Meyers for groceries. Now since we're eating in...we're also eating healthy. Buying organic what we can, watching the calories and sodium in foods, and mixing fruits and vegetables in with everything so that we're getting our needed servings of them. Tonights meal...Three Cheese Pasta Bake using organic pasta (which is delicious!) and some potato fries, using a real potato and adding a small amount of olive oil and salt. It actually turned out really good! I'm really excited about this whole eating healthy and making dinners together. I've actually lost weight this summer, and I'm excited to lose more as I change my eating style. :)

Rachel and Jordan came over and we all hung out for a little while, though he's on this mute high right now so he didn't say a word, thankfully Call Of Duty and facebook stalking made up for the silence :)

Tomorrow my big giant baby turns 18 years old...oh goodness. :)

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There a million things I've learned this summer, some are small and mostly irrelevant, others are not. I've learned that just because someone might carry the label "friend" does not mean they are one. I've learned that ultimately family is much more important than friends, and that when people say friends are essential, they are wrong. Family is essential. The members in my family are my best friends. Because no matter what I do, say, or don't do, they will ALWAYS love me, ALWAYS be there for me, and NOT post comments on facebook obviously referring to me. :)

Example:

A: I miss old times with all the girls.
A: Well some :p
B: hahahaha I know exactly what you mean.

(and blah blah blah)

But thankfully, in all my lovely lessons learned this summer, I've learned that I don't need people like I think I do. I've learned I'm okay with just being ME. My family has extended a lot in the past year, I have now have three sisters, instead of just one. I have one ultimate mom figure, but another that treats me as her daughter. I have a nephew, whom I love dearly, and I have a boyfriend who has helped me get through all my tears. That family, are the people I want and need most in my life. Those people are the ones I can't do without.

Last night Drex and I drove out to Eagle River to hang out with Emily. We got Caden an exersaucer



which he obviously loves. (Actually I bought Caden the excersaucer cus I love him more than anything!) I got to read him his bedtime story, and change his diaper, and help put him to bed :) Then we just hung out and talked to Emily about basically everything for a few hours.

I also forgot to mention Drex and I celebrated our 14 months a few days ago! We made quite the painting



I love my boyfriend so much :)

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This should have been yesterdays blog post...It should have been, but it wasn't. In all the chaos of the day, I forgot. I forgot to remember.

Yesterday I celebrated Drex's life. The life he almost didn't get to live. The one that was almost taken away from him. Yesterday 6 years ago, Drex walked out of a car accident and his dad didn't.

There will always be days when I feel helpless. Knowing I cannot change anything, cannot make anything better, cannot say or do anything to take away the pain. It is these days and nights in which we curl up together and cry. It is in these moments where we grow closer, stronger, and love each other all the more. We learn to depend on each other and to trust each other.

So thank you God. Thank you for sparing Drex. Thank you for protecting him. And thank you for bringing him into my life.

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Celebrating Dads...















...and everything they've taught us, every time they've held us, and every time they've shown their love for us in the smallest and yet most impacting ways.

Thank you Dad for being the greatest dad I could have ever asked for. And thank you Dave for the amazing son you've given me. I love you both.

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Well today Loosie did her first piece of artwork!


It's a painting she made for Drex for fathers day. He is her daddy after all :) I was extremely impressed with her artistic abilities! She's quite the natural. She was a little (lot) unsure of it at first, but once we did it a few times she was really good.

She wasn't a fan of the being washed off after thing, but hey who is? So mommy and Loosie had their bonding time and daddy was exiled to the xbox. (not that he minded haha) Thank goodness for another good day :)

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I'm really proud of myself for keeping up with this blog so far. I mean It was always my intention to...but I thought I would've failed long before this. So props to me! :)

Drex and I have developed a new...hobby? Or perhaps come up with a new goal? Anyways, the plan is to bike every night for the rest of the summer (well as long as we're in town anyway). Hopefully it'll be like this blog...something you just have to do, and end up really looking forward to doing.

I'm exhausted. Today has been a really long day. I woke up at 6am, got ready in 30 minutes, drove to Drexs house to say a quick goodmorning, and was off to KCC until 3pm. From there...it was work until 9:30pm and then a bike ride (yay 2 nights in a row!) and now...this. :)

I've been happier lately. Drex and I have been happier lately. I feel like I'm riding on clouds. Sure, there's the occasional bumps (like work, and KCC) but at the end of the day I'm happy...happy like I just found out he liked me...giddy like a school girl. I'm in love. I wouldn't have it any other way.

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Beaches, Sleeping in until noon, dinner at a steakhouse, seeing the grandparents you haven't seen since you were eight, my kind of day :)

The plan was originally to wake up at about 9:30, make breakfast, and be at Bush Gardens at around 11:30. However I woke up this morning with an awful stomachache and it was raining so we decided to post-pone BG until tomorrow. This of course meant Drex and I could go back to bed and sleep until noon, which we did with great enjoyment. By the time we actually got out of the room it was 2:30 and we were supposed to have dinner with my grandparents at 6. So, we decided to go to the beach.


I love being on vacation with my best friend! We got to walk through the warm water and white sand. (Romantic right?) We also got to be the little kids searching for sea shells. It's so funny how the simplest things can be a million times better when you do them with the person you love.

From the beach it was onto dinner, something I was genuinly scared about. I hadn't seen my grandparents since i was eight and the stories I've heard haven't been great. Thankfully though it went fine! Everyone got along, they were nice and talkative and all in all it was good. (Plus we ate at the #1 Rated steakhouse in America in 2007 and 2008)


The day has been fabulous, though I'm looking forward to leaving the humidity in a few days. In the meantime though I'll just relax and enjoy every moment spent with Drex and his mommy.