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Maroon and Gold day! :)

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I did my eyebrows tonight. To most, this is probably something they do often. Not for me. I used to keep up with that kind of stuff, like this summer for instance. But school started, and so did a million issues. With those issues, I stopped caring. I felt like I was losing everything, like life was spinning out of control. But tonight I made that effort. I did my eyebrows. It's a small step, but it's a step nonetheless. It's been hard to find my way out of the rubble. It's been much too easy to sit amongst it and complain. But I refuse to do that any longer. It's time to rebuild, to reconnect, to get off my lazy butt and make something of myself. I know it's not easy, trust me, being a stranger suddenly in a school you've felt comfortable in for years, is weird. It's terrifying. It's miserable. So I'm working on building relationships and friendships with those I've been surrounded by for 6 years. Because ultimately, this is my senior year, this is my senior class, and like it or not, I'm stuck there.

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So today was my lovely stay home and watch teen mom and do nothing :)

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This post was originally going to be yesterdays, but I decided to write it today, because it gave my whirlwind of emotions to settle down.

Yesterday, my very best friend, and another good friend were in a car accident. I spent my evening with my best friend in the ER. It got me thinking though, how we can be taken at any moment. How in the blink of an eye we can be gone. God protected them. But what if it had gone differently? I suppose that is the question we are all haunted with right now. And I guess that's all I can truly say about it.

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It's been a long week. A long, stressful, and emotional week. I'm glad tomorrow starts a new week. I'm glad today was the end of it. I hope it gets better. I really truly do.

I have to make the best of it. To still enjoy my senior year. As hard as it's going to be without them, I know I can't sit and pout. I love my class...but it's just not the same. This year doesn't hold the potential that it used to. But I have to move forward.

Unfortunately school doesn't stop. There's no pause button. Next Saturday I take the SATs again. I have to start studying. I have a vocab quiz on Wednesday. I have a test sometime this week. School goes on, and so does life. I wish it would slow down and give me a moment to sort my emotions. But it won't. So I have to deal with it, to be strong, to make the best of things. Even when it sucks.

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Hebrews 10:35-36 " So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised."

Today...my best friends were expelled.

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I have adopted the motto "this too shall pass" for life right now. Nitro's puppy stages, school, my best friends and their issues, etc. It's encouraging, to know that it will get better, that someday I will look back and laugh. But until that day, I just remind myself that this too will indeed pass.

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Sometimes Drex and I forget to have fun. We get so caught up in the dogs, family, drama, school, etc. that we just do everything routinely, without a laugh or a smile. Hardly enjoying the afternoons at all. But not today. Last night we talked about it, we cried, we discussed, we talked about everything that was wrong, and that made it right. We went in not being happy and came out happy simply because we talked and had a real conversation.

So today we enjoyed ourselves. We went to Mr. Prime Beef and got the dogs some bones and us some ground beef. We went grocery shopping. We went to the apartment and made tacos, locked the dogs on the balcony with raw bones, and played Halo. We drank lots of grape soda and ate Cheetos. We blared the radio on the way home and sang along. We laughed and smiled and fell in love all over again.

I needed that, we needed that.

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Crazy Jumping Dogs

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Dear....

ALL OF YOU WHO ARE NOT AT SCHOOL WITH ME RIGHT NOW

I miss you.

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(Dear blogger, you are an hour ahead of me. It is still Sunday where I am. Please remember this. Love, Me.)

I was going through pictures and found this one. Which I love. :)

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It's been one of those days. One of those on my period, super emotional days. Sometimes, being a woman sucks.

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So this morning I decided to take a few pictures of breakfast time....







Yummy right? Now try being the one that has to pick the leaves of the meat so they will continue eating it. Delicious.

We also got Nitro's papers today :)



Seeing them makes me want to breed him even more than I did. I mean he has an awesome pedigree! We wouldn't breed until he was older, and even then he has about a million tests we'd have to pay for.

(I.E Hip score, eye exams and a hearing test. As well as DNA testing to make sure his lines are pure...and oh so many more.)

But it is something to think about. Especially since he is ABCA registered and has an amazing pedigree. We'll see :)

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Going raw...

So I've been doing a bunch of research about feeding dogs a raw diet. A lot of people are going this way because by going raw YOU control what your dog eats.

http://www.dogguide.net/raw-diet-basics.php

http://www.rawlearning.com/

There are two sites that explain it much better than I can. Anyways, today we made a visit to the butcher and the dogs will be fed a semi raw diet. TOTW (Taste of the wild, our dog food) in the morning and raw for dinner. The first thing we started on, and what is recommended to start on, was Chicken Thighs. Nitro took em like a champ, eating the meat off and then chewing the bone. Loosie wasn't so sure, it took her a little while to be okay with the texture.

Its our new adventure. But I'm totally excited. :)

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My awesome day summed up in pictures :)

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My terrible, horrible, VERY bad day. (And Liz's 18 bday! But that's not what made it awful.)

And this is how it happened.

#1. I'm not allowed to skip school for Liz's birthday lunch. (Oh how I envy those of you suspended)

#2. I get my phone taken away. For talking to my manager. Stupidest thing ever. So the stupid teacher takes it to the office...anddd I get a detention (awesome.) and I get to freak out while I pray they don't go snooping. (Cus they're kind of like that.)

Okay so those two things made my day SUCK. (I just realized how pathetic that looks...but trust me it actually did suck)

But these made my day better

#1. Getting my nails done with my best friends. Just what I needed :)

#2. Chocolate (Thank you Mrs. Congdon)

#3. Getting oh so exciting halloween costumes with my best friend.

#4. Ordering pizza and playing video games with my boyfriend.

And that my friends is how you make a horrible day into a decent one :)

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My first full day without my best friends. Sure, last friday they weren't at school, but I wasn't there until lunch, and then only had three classes. It felt more like they were sick. But not today. Today the emptiness was very much so there. You don't know how much you depend on your friends, until they're taken away. But let me tell you, it sucks.

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Tattoos...

Okay, so I've been thinking a lot about tattoos I want...soooo here's the two I want for sure so far...

I want a dove on my hip
and I want "Only God can Judge me" on my foot (I think, the placement may be changed though but I love the words.)

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Sleeping baby

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Happy Birthday Rach!

So today we celebrated Rachel's 18th birthday :) It's so weird everyone is getting so old...so quickly.

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And it all comes tumbling down.

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Another day at the dog park :)

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There was a time in which I used to fit in in high school. I was loud, funny, comfortable. I could talk to strangers, be totally obnoxious in class, and yet be totally okay with that. I'm not anymore. I don't feel like I fit in at all. Like I'm trapped in the skin of a high school student. Somewhere down the road, I grew up. Though I am happy about that in so many ways, there are others in which I hate it.

Part of me wishes I could still be....carefree. But reality struck me. That one moment that changed everything. It made me grow up. It made me quiet, distance, secret. The one thing that in an instance, put all the weight of the world on my shoulders. I so wish I could forget it and move on. But I can't. I never will be able to. It will haunt me, everyday, and every moment of my life.

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And yet another day at the lake.

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Enjoying the lake :)

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No Internet connection=no long thoughtful post. Sorry :S

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It's been a long day

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My life consists of dogs, dogs, and dogs.

And I love it.

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So today I skipped school and was off to the fair with Drex! :)









And we held a real live snake!

:)