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Hebrews 10:35-36 " So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised."

Today...my best friends were expelled.

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I have adopted the motto "this too shall pass" for life right now. Nitro's puppy stages, school, my best friends and their issues, etc. It's encouraging, to know that it will get better, that someday I will look back and laugh. But until that day, I just remind myself that this too will indeed pass.

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Dear....

ALL OF YOU WHO ARE NOT AT SCHOOL WITH ME RIGHT NOW

I miss you.

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My awesome day summed up in pictures :)

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My terrible, horrible, VERY bad day. (And Liz's 18 bday! But that's not what made it awful.)

And this is how it happened.

#1. I'm not allowed to skip school for Liz's birthday lunch. (Oh how I envy those of you suspended)

#2. I get my phone taken away. For talking to my manager. Stupidest thing ever. So the stupid teacher takes it to the office...anddd I get a detention (awesome.) and I get to freak out while I pray they don't go snooping. (Cus they're kind of like that.)

Okay so those two things made my day SUCK. (I just realized how pathetic that looks...but trust me it actually did suck)

But these made my day better

#1. Getting my nails done with my best friends. Just what I needed :)

#2. Chocolate (Thank you Mrs. Congdon)

#3. Getting oh so exciting halloween costumes with my best friend.

#4. Ordering pizza and playing video games with my boyfriend.

And that my friends is how you make a horrible day into a decent one :)

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My first full day without my best friends. Sure, last friday they weren't at school, but I wasn't there until lunch, and then only had three classes. It felt more like they were sick. But not today. Today the emptiness was very much so there. You don't know how much you depend on your friends, until they're taken away. But let me tell you, it sucks.

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Happy Birthday Rach!

So today we celebrated Rachel's 18th birthday :) It's so weird everyone is getting so old...so quickly.

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This whole 'not seeing Drex until the evening' thing isn't working well. Not because it's awkward or anything, but because he ignores me. Because I have to literally ASK him to sit next to me, or talk to me. I feel like it's a constant battle for his attention. And even when he does stop doing whatever he's doing (usually on the computer) he goes RIGHT back to it moments later.

It's just frustrating. Really Really frustrating. Especially because I don't get to see him during the day, and even less when I work. But it's like I might as well not see him at all. He's just here...and so am I....but we don't talk, or sit close. I know our relationship is fine, it's not like this is going to cause us to break up or anything. It's just that I need more than someone to just sit with me. UGH. It's so annoying!

That is all.

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Today has been one of those days.

Rainy, lazy, and I don't feel good. My head is full of junk which is causing my throat to be sore and me to just feel like all around crap.

Also, my senior pictures STILL aren't up. Which is really frustrating because the lady that did mine told me they would be up EARLY this week. (It's saturday...so definitely not early).

I am losing patience. Fast.

GRRR.

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Movie night :)

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(this blog was originally a note I was in the process of writing to my best friend, mostly just for myself)

Once upon a time I was one of the most anti-abortion, anti-gay marriage, anti-democratic people I knew. However, though my surroundings didn't change, my opinions and thoughts have. I have become less and less republican and more and more democrat. Suddenly I have become NO on Prop 2 (Parental Rights), and NO on Prop 8 (ban on same sex marriage). I think this happened because I began to question my authority, and realize there are other people aside from me. People in different situations, people that need options. I can't wait to get married, why should a gay person be banned from that?

Oh politics.

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There is nothing in me that wants to blog. It hasn't been a great night (It hasn't been a bad one either, just...eh.) so forgive me for the shortness and not so sweetness of this post. I promise I'll get better, you just have to let me settle into this whole school thing :)

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Bed time...

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So today was the first day of school, and it went well. Fortunately I don't have to be at school until 9:55 instead of 8 which is REALLY nice.

After school however, we took the dogs to the dog park and Nitro met a Great Dane named Piper.

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The day before school starts...

I'm actually really excited about school starting. Not at all nervous, and not even fretting about what to wear! I got my hair cut today...way shorter than it was.

So this is before...



And this is now...



I actually really like it. It's definitely a change, but I'm okay with change. I wanted something way different and I definitely got that. :)

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So today the sunshine came out and the day was HOT. We spent it at the beach with the dogs. They loved it!

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So while the rest of my high school is off at retreat...I got to do my own thing :)

I got to sleep in, work, and decorate my locker. It's so pretty! I love it so much.

Also, plans changed with my schedule. Since I'm already taking 4 home schooling classes plus my GCS classes, looks like I don't need to take a class at South. Which means the earliest I have to be at school is 10! Totally perfect! :)

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I was looking through my recent posts and I realized I haven't talked much about going back to school. (Ech!) Unfortunately it's becoming a reality so I figure I might as well talk about it.

While the rest of my school begins on the 18th, I will not be starting with them. My school does this retreat thing and though normally we get a first day we don't this year. Instead, we head straight out to retreat where we stay for 2 nights 3 days. However, I will not be attending retreat this year (yay!) and instead get to stay here, attend my class at South, work, and hangout with my beloved boyfriend who starts school on the 23rd.

I have about a million mixed feelings about starting this next school year. I won't be attending the same school as Drex, and that for one is strange to me. No seeing him at lunch, or in between classes. No safe place to rest during an argument with friends, no friendly encouragement when I'm having a bad day...It's going to be hard, but I believe we'll be okay. We have two babies together after all :)

In my sadness of not going to school with him, I also know there are positives. I get to hangout with my friends and they get my full attention. I get to feel more included in things they are discussing about during lunch because I won't be having a separate conversation.

So I'm having to remind myself, it's not all bad.

Work has been really great with my whole "back to school" thing and the latest they're having my work is 8. This will be even nicer this year as I will have class at 7:30AM. EEK! I'm nervous about my class at South. I'm scared of getting lost, not knowing anyone, what to wear, etc. But I know it'll be good for me. Especially since in a year, I'll be heading off to a new school, knowing no one.

I'm having to remind myself to take everything one simple step at a time. The year will end soon enough, and I will be done. But no need to rush things...as much as I'd love to.

Ps. Happy 43rd Birthday Mommy :)