62/365

This should have been yesterdays blog post...It should have been, but it wasn't. In all the chaos of the day, I forgot. I forgot to remember.

Yesterday I celebrated Drex's life. The life he almost didn't get to live. The one that was almost taken away from him. Yesterday 6 years ago, Drex walked out of a car accident and his dad didn't.

There will always be days when I feel helpless. Knowing I cannot change anything, cannot make anything better, cannot say or do anything to take away the pain. It is these days and nights in which we curl up together and cry. It is in these moments where we grow closer, stronger, and love each other all the more. We learn to depend on each other and to trust each other.

So thank you God. Thank you for sparing Drex. Thank you for protecting him. And thank you for bringing him into my life.

41/365

There are times in my life when I'm selfish and I know I shouldn't be. Times like today. Times when I'm trying to find the perfect fathers day card. Times when Drex tells me he doesn't want to hear them. Times when I get upset and shut down.

I should understand. I should know that Fathers Day is something I need to be sensitive about. But I don't think about it. I don't think about the fact that he no longer has a dad to give fathers day cards to. That his dad was gone in a blink of an eye. That he was there with him. I shouldn't forget. But I do.