And we held a real live snake!
:)
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
124/365
So today I skipped school and was off to the fair with Drex! :)
And we held a real live snake!
:)
And we held a real live snake!
:)
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Monday, August 30, 2010
122/365
This whole 'not seeing Drex until the evening' thing isn't working well. Not because it's awkward or anything, but because he ignores me. Because I have to literally ASK him to sit next to me, or talk to me. I feel like it's a constant battle for his attention. And even when he does stop doing whatever he's doing (usually on the computer) he goes RIGHT back to it moments later.
It's just frustrating. Really Really frustrating. Especially because I don't get to see him during the day, and even less when I work. But it's like I might as well not see him at all. He's just here...and so am I....but we don't talk, or sit close. I know our relationship is fine, it's not like this is going to cause us to break up or anything. It's just that I need more than someone to just sit with me. UGH. It's so annoying!
That is all.
It's just frustrating. Really Really frustrating. Especially because I don't get to see him during the day, and even less when I work. But it's like I might as well not see him at all. He's just here...and so am I....but we don't talk, or sit close. I know our relationship is fine, it's not like this is going to cause us to break up or anything. It's just that I need more than someone to just sit with me. UGH. It's so annoying!
That is all.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
121/365
Dear Destinee.
You are beautiful, unique, and special. You love with your whole heart and leave nothing behind. Don’t let a boy change that. Don’t let a boy make you think things about yourself that aren’t true. Don’t let a boy every make you think you are worth less than you are.
I have told you that you need to figure out who YOU are. Without friends, without family, without boys. You did. You found yourself when you left all you knew and stepped into a world that was different from what you were used to.
But then, you came back. You came back and fit yourself into the mold you had left. A mold that isn’t necessarily bad, but a mold that holds you so tightly that you feel everything all over again.
Remember when we were in Russia? You told me something.
That because you weren’t with Tyler you could do so much more. Adopt kids, go study abroad if you wanted to, not hurt every night because you couldn’t hangout with him.
I have a boyfriend. I wouldn’t trade him for the world. But I have to give up things, I cannot do anything I want whenever I want. You CAN. Don’t forget that.
There is a quote you used to love…
“Loving someone is giving them the power to destroy you,
And trusting them not to.”
-Unknown
You loved Tyler. You will ALWAYS love Tyler. But don’t regret Tyler. Be thankful for the moments you got to spend with him. Don’t try to replace those or make them less important than they are. It is okay to hurt. It is okay to cry. It is okay to feel broken and needy. You have to break to be fixed. But don’t forget to heal. Don’t forget to remember that those moments you guys shared together were special, but there will be other moments with other people. That not being with Tyler brings you one step closer to who you were intended for.
Don’t sit and think you’ll never be married or have kids. That you won’t find that “prince charming”. (You will.) Instead plan your life. LIVE your life. Cherish those memories and let them help you in your life.
He will always hold a special place in your heart. But let him. Don’t try to push him out because that’s impossible. Just accept that he will be there, and you will be in his. Rebuild your heart, and keep it open, because you never know when someone will stumble in.
And remember,
You don’t have to cry alone.
I love you.
You are beautiful, unique, and special. You love with your whole heart and leave nothing behind. Don’t let a boy change that. Don’t let a boy make you think things about yourself that aren’t true. Don’t let a boy every make you think you are worth less than you are.
I have told you that you need to figure out who YOU are. Without friends, without family, without boys. You did. You found yourself when you left all you knew and stepped into a world that was different from what you were used to.
But then, you came back. You came back and fit yourself into the mold you had left. A mold that isn’t necessarily bad, but a mold that holds you so tightly that you feel everything all over again.
Remember when we were in Russia? You told me something.
That because you weren’t with Tyler you could do so much more. Adopt kids, go study abroad if you wanted to, not hurt every night because you couldn’t hangout with him.
I have a boyfriend. I wouldn’t trade him for the world. But I have to give up things, I cannot do anything I want whenever I want. You CAN. Don’t forget that.
There is a quote you used to love…
“Loving someone is giving them the power to destroy you,
And trusting them not to.”
-Unknown
You loved Tyler. You will ALWAYS love Tyler. But don’t regret Tyler. Be thankful for the moments you got to spend with him. Don’t try to replace those or make them less important than they are. It is okay to hurt. It is okay to cry. It is okay to feel broken and needy. You have to break to be fixed. But don’t forget to heal. Don’t forget to remember that those moments you guys shared together were special, but there will be other moments with other people. That not being with Tyler brings you one step closer to who you were intended for.
Don’t sit and think you’ll never be married or have kids. That you won’t find that “prince charming”. (You will.) Instead plan your life. LIVE your life. Cherish those memories and let them help you in your life.
He will always hold a special place in your heart. But let him. Don’t try to push him out because that’s impossible. Just accept that he will be there, and you will be in his. Rebuild your heart, and keep it open, because you never know when someone will stumble in.
And remember,
You don’t have to cry alone.
I love you.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
120/365
Today has been one of those days.
Rainy, lazy, and I don't feel good. My head is full of junk which is causing my throat to be sore and me to just feel like all around crap.
Also, my senior pictures STILL aren't up. Which is really frustrating because the lady that did mine told me they would be up EARLY this week. (It's saturday...so definitely not early).
I am losing patience. Fast.
GRRR.
Rainy, lazy, and I don't feel good. My head is full of junk which is causing my throat to be sore and me to just feel like all around crap.
Also, my senior pictures STILL aren't up. Which is really frustrating because the lady that did mine told me they would be up EARLY this week. (It's saturday...so definitely not early).
I am losing patience. Fast.
GRRR.
Friday, August 27, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
118/365
(this blog was originally a note I was in the process of writing to my best friend, mostly just for myself)
Once upon a time I was one of the most anti-abortion, anti-gay marriage, anti-democratic people I knew. However, though my surroundings didn't change, my opinions and thoughts have. I have become less and less republican and more and more democrat. Suddenly I have become NO on Prop 2 (Parental Rights), and NO on Prop 8 (ban on same sex marriage). I think this happened because I began to question my authority, and realize there are other people aside from me. People in different situations, people that need options. I can't wait to get married, why should a gay person be banned from that?
Oh politics.
Once upon a time I was one of the most anti-abortion, anti-gay marriage, anti-democratic people I knew. However, though my surroundings didn't change, my opinions and thoughts have. I have become less and less republican and more and more democrat. Suddenly I have become NO on Prop 2 (Parental Rights), and NO on Prop 8 (ban on same sex marriage). I think this happened because I began to question my authority, and realize there are other people aside from me. People in different situations, people that need options. I can't wait to get married, why should a gay person be banned from that?
Oh politics.
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